SWEEP THE LEG!!! AGAIN!

soo i kind of realized that lately most of my posts have been...so.... melancholy?! Okay, we'll go with that. I decided I'd stray away from that tone for a minute and talk about random shit today! So it's Sunday, I just got home from eating out with the family and I had the most baller(i can't believe baller is used as an adjective now!?) Udon noodles ever. For those that don't know what Udon is, it's basically a flour noodle thats cooked in a broth and paired with meat. That shit was gooder then a mafucka!(im going to be typing very casually cause im too lazy to type proper.) I've come to realize that mexican chefs are some of the most unappreciated, underrated and overlooked cooks out there. Those dudes can cook! I remember at one point I kind of wanted to do culinary arts, but then i realized i was way too fucking impatient!

hmmmmmm.... on another note..

Im going to buy a new pair of shoes! What a surprise right?! talking about shoes again. Well u know what, that's what I want to talk about!! bruh!!
So what shoe you might ask?! well of course Nike.
Im getting the Nike Air Pegasus +27. They sell them at my job n they're last years color skew but that works perfectly for me since they're air force colors. As far as running shoes goes, they're not bad for neutral runners and they're very comfortable throw around shoes for when you want to just go get groceries or some shit.

Enough is enough I do believe..

For those that never accept last place, for the guys that never learned how to say the words "I quit", or "it's out of my league". For the ones that selflessly sacrifice ever moral fiber of their existence to obtain success. I proudly present to you the newest member of this small percentage of true believers and "doomed from the get-go" individuals. His name is John, and he no longer wishes to sit on the sidelines believing that waiting for the love of his life will bring him..the love of his life! I know most people write things like this saying "I'll never give up hope" or "I'll love until I can't love anymore.", but; fuck that! I quit at being naive, at believing she'll care for me. Fellow readers, imagine this. You give a significant opposite everything you've got and in the end she not only denies you but labels you a ghost, ignores you as if there was never anything between you at all. Now most people would think I was proclaiming my devote faith in love and that I wouldn't be quitting on trying to gain her love back. NO! complete opposite. This is the last time I say I'll quit and this is me quitting on trying, simply because I die inside every time I notice you not notice me. I can't live that life anymore. So now I say this for the last time, "I quit" and from now on, I'll make sure I mean it. No more forgetting about you and then jumping back into your radar the minute you manipulate me back into your life. I'll promise myself that I'll never quit on quitting you. I'll forge a cage around my heart so tough you'll never be able to reach me. I'll drain myself emotionally and re-hydrate from neutral waters until I'm completely rid of all feelings for you. You'll be a ghost, an after-imagine. Just a figment with no face, one that can no longer torment me. You never realized how much you hurt me. While you lived your life in the shadow of a kind, soft spoken girl there was a heart bleeding out from the wounds you inflicted and not once did you bother to care. So many sleepless nights, I died a thousand times and came back to a heartache worse then death.

I can't wait to get out of this town. Away from you..from everything.

Racing to Lose...?

No matter how hard you try or how much denial you place yourself in, it always seems to catch up. You put everything in swimming through the endless sea of everyday endeavor. Ride the wave of time until you think you're where/who you want to be; then it comes. Like a Jamaican track star it races past everything you've worked hard to build and with it a syringe, filled to the top with a shot of reality. I'm talking about life. Life catches up with all of us and in the end we're left floating. Drifting, not knowing where to go or what may become of us. Everyone goes through that point and for some it may be a passing after-thought, fleeing just ask quickly as it came; but for others, it could seem like an eternity. I know most of my blogs are random things, but I felt compelled to write this after reading a dear friend's blog. Ms. Thurayya if you're reading this, which I doubt you ever will :P. You'll be okay, we all go through that period in our lives where we come to some realization. I've gone through it. Look at the random shifts I've made, from being a nursing student to joining the police academy to joining the air force. No one knows what kind of person they'll grow into and everyone wants to live a fulfilling life but the thing is, genuinely good people will remain good people. Live with passion, be fearless and never be afraid of anything, especially yourself.
Adulthood is scary, but it's a good wake-up call in some sense. I urge you to embrace it, don't allow the fear of change a chance to distort your visions on life. Grasp every moment you can and learn from it, drink from the cup of knowledge until it runs dry. You'll eventually learn that it isn't life that's catching up to you, but you learning to take hold of it. That's what it means to live a fulfilling life. To have complete control, to be completely satisfied. That's growing up in my book, shedding away from all the plasticity and being yourself.


fuck, I'm ranting again...

I'll end this blog with a a quote from one of my favorite movies starring one of my favorite actors.

"Life is not merely a series of meaningless accidents or coincidences. But rather, it's a tapestry of events that culminate in an exquisite, sublime plan"

And this breeze brings new promises...

the summer air filling my lungs seems to have brought with it a new sense of vitality. I can't help but smile as the summer sun shines on my face, after all; the summer sun was always my first true love and although we've parted ways many times I knew she'd always come back to me. This summer wind brings with it a glimpse of my future. A summer romance, something "ACTUALLY WORTH DRAINING MYSELF PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY". I know I'm always on here blabbering about love and all that cheesy stuff; but it's the time of fireflies, giant moons so close to the ground you could almost reach for it, and of course magic. Well, at least that's always what I thought of when I thought of summer growing up. Shit, i still think of summer as a time where anything can happen; where the rigmaroles of growing up didn't matter. There is no way in hell that I am the only one that thinks this though! Everyone gets a certain feeling whenever summer comes around the bend. Regardless of age. The over worked employer, the puffy cheeked grammar school student, and even librarians all get a certain feeling in their gut. Everything from the smell of barbecues and chlorine saturated pool water to the noise of the crickets and cicadas bring new hopes.

this is going to be a memorable summer and i can't wait until your back here, back with me..

Because I'll never have to worry about being alone.

I know i should be updating my philippines trip blog, but i dont feel like it! ill probably update that later, but right now i was kind of inspired by a certain lady to write something. Sooo update!

hmm, not really much, I've just been working a lot and buying random sneakers that I don't really need. Life's a breeze when you just sit back and let it unfold.

On another note, Ive realized how fortunate i am to have such close friends. I realized that a good amount of people can't truly say they have a true inner circle of friends. I've learned so much about myself from my friends. They've helped me grow and overcome problems within. I've learned to become much more thick skinned yet respectful and level-headed just from being around my friends. In short, they're great people, and I'm thankful they're there for me.


super side note, Ive been listening to this band Angus and Julia Stone a lot lately. they're really good.

Philippines bound!

Im heading back to the motherlands for the summer! ill fill you in later, im too excited to type

Talk about bad luck.

Have you ever met someone and instantly knew you wanted to spend the rest of you're life with them? Well I've met that girl, unfortunately; she left my life just as quickly as she entered.

So in other words.... SHITS WEAK!!!!


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I ordered the stone/aqua 6.0 Oncore highs and the SB Omar Salazar purple midcuts. I think I'm spending too much money.