"Night"

something random and stupid i thought of last nite.. lol i would have put it up but i was a bit impaired at the time {{SKEEZERSSS :P}}

As the world sleeps,

My mind awakens like a locomotion,

taking thoughts-to letters- to words on blank sheets,

more commotion,

the silence of the darkness fills the room,

my favorite noise,

i embrace her,

she fills me with cessation,

her only thought,

to consume the illumination,

like fluid, the darkness makes its way towards me,

hungry,

ready to engulf the shape created by the opaque glow of a computer screen,

this is my night,

a constant battle between shadow and light,

a microcosm of success and defeats,

as the world sleeps.

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I found my Angel // Story Time Part 3

so there she was..alone..in a room full of faces, a sheet of bodies. From the moment i saw her, i couldnt help but be drawn to her. We caught eyes, and at that moment... she smiled the most beautiful smile I've ever seen. From then on all i could think about, all i could muster up, every ounce of me thought one thing..."perfect". It was like a dream, NO, better then a dream..cause dreams eventually fade and at some point must end...this was something more. The stuff dreams dream of being. For the first time in my life i wanted to embrace life and at the same time i wanted to end it, end time..keep this moment forever. Right away she notices me, we approach each other slowly. I still cant believe i was afraid. I've never been afraid of conversation with a female, but for the first time...i was scared. We come face to face, she's more beautiful up close and an amazing smell lingered around her; like an aura of divine grace. I try to be cool. "Hi my name is Jim". She smiles, and replies in the cutest voice i've ever heard "Hi im Vicki". She was an angel, and i knew i needed her....

"Get your head out of the clouds kid"// Story Part 2

As they would say, nothing in life ever comes easy; applying for college isnt easy, running a 10 mile marathon isnt is, and telling a girl you have nothing in common with that you think the world of her sure as hell isnt easy! "Imagine waking up everyday knowing you're bound to see something you can never have. It's as if your living life behind a glass window, and whenever you try to get pass the window it gets thicker and thicker. Fate is only a river's cross away, unfortunately there's no bridge to be found." "Dammit Jim, get your head out of the clouds!""Fuck is wrong with you man? You sound like a fuckin emo!" Of course you would never understand,you're more concerned about what's "in" rather then what you feel "inside". When there's something you hate, you hate it...when there's something you like, you like it... but its not that easy. It's never that easy. For some people life is just a car idling, but for others its one transmission problem after another. The farther and farther you get, the more distant and secluded you feel, you wanna push forward but you're reluctant. why? Cause the gripping lips of fear tell you otherwise, they tell you to get your head out of the clouds and stop analyzing life. Which in some cases is good, a true and happy life is that lived without boundaries, but; only a moron would go about not analyzing every situation. There are too many paths and outcomes. "So i'd rather keep my head in the clouds, it gives me a better view on the world from the heavens, and ill feel like i know exactly where i need to go when i get back down" --Jim

It was a cold night, definitely not a night for a party... but none the less, filipinos loved to gather. Jim generally didnt go 2 such things, his "white-washed" attitude filled him with disgust at the idea of going to a place full of "FOB{fresh off the boat}" filipinos and having to cater to girls he had felt no absolute attraction for. Dont get me wrong, he sure as hell loved being filipino, but let's just say it wasnt his "scene". This particular party though, it was at a close close close close family friend's house, and at the urging of one of his good filipino friends Jim decided to bundle up and head out. Jim feels no different, just another place to make an appearance to...say hi, eat food...drink here and there..leave...standard routine.

He gets there, its the usuals, except this time...there are two girls in the kitchen playing cards. Jim decides, why not..."hey". They smile. He begins his usual conversation methods. {Lets get it straight before the story progresses, though Jim maybe confused about life, I never said he wasnt social, in fact..he was quite known for being very good with communicating with the opposite sex :)} After awhile, he decides they're on the boring side and progresses to the garage to greet the men. Nothing new. Time flows by, slowly... Jim finally feels like its time to be heading out, when all of a sudden...she walks in

PART 3 Coming soon...please don't copy and/or redistribute this poorly told story with its numerous grammatical errors...thats a douche bag move!

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Story Time Part 1

you know, instead of talking about how my week is or what's being going on in the life of [john] i think i'd much rather tell a story... im more in a "story telling mood" anyway.

its about a guy, and what story wouldnt be complete without a girl...now we need a timeframe, lets say...here and now...ok soo all we need is a place and some names! how about, the story takes place in north carolina and we'll call the boy jim and the girl Vicki. works? sure.

Now this story should be just like every other "boy-meets-girl" story out there -rite- boy meets girl, boy loses girl, sad sad sad, better better better, happy ending.. good? nahhh how about:

This is the story of Jim, Jim isnt like every1 else...sure he goes through all the same ankst and dilemma's that a normal teenage boy goes through.. but he's lost. Not Deep Space 9 lost, just "lost". From the world, from reality, from love, ...from himself... Now everyone at his age goes through a stage when realization hits and they dont know what comes next..thats lost.. but Jim seems to be worse. It seems like everyone else is paddling through the oceans of life in a row boat while Jim struggles to stay above water. Of course there are people that have it worse...starving children, abused individuals, and hoodrats.. but what did Jim know about them? just because he wasnt in that situation didnt mean his troubles were any less... pain is pain... as Jim would put it " when the hurt takes you to the point where you cant take being alive anymore, then it doesnt matter what caused it..ur pain is as serious as any other."

So there goes Jim, floating by life, letting the debris of livelihood drift past him no urge to pull anything in, embrace life, just getting older.. a vessel..watching the world pass... until one day.. he met Vicki, and from there on out... life no longer drifted pass Jim.

Part 2 coming soon! i gots to get some shitsss done

*Disclaimer- by choosing to read this, you agree to not reprint any of the following passages for personal gain and/or claim the property as an original work..dont be a douche

Prologue....sort of...

Im gonna be posting the story i was working on b4, i kinda ended up but its ok, here's the little lead up to the story:

Just Like Heaven

have you ever met some1 so amazing that you couldnt help but fall for them? and i mean the kind of falling where you don't even care where you land cause you know they'll be there no matter what. the kind that lasts forever but happens in the blink of an eye. I think i've found her..only problem is:

(lol n there's always a fucking catch dammit!)

i cant be with her, and i really mean I CANT BE WITH HER the reasons are probably endless, but mainly cause it'll complicate the hell out of things and by this i mean family-wise, our "group" wise, and because of promises and bonds that ive made. I wont get too into detail, but damm mann, if it were only as easy as saying "i love you, be with me.." but i guess it never is huh?

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i havent written in this shit at all! i keep forgetting! ive been soo busy! well actually, not really... n im suppose 2 be uploading videos dammit! lol of Franklin St after UNC won, of titus n nico's performance, n just other shit!! well ill probably get 2 all that eventually

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ok, on second thought, i think i mite tell her... i know itll never turn out rite, n i know itll probably be bad n shitt...but wateverr if anything i can always run off to the philippines n live on the beach lol godd dam i miss the philippines!

Eye Candy

Im Alive!

well, i decided to come back to this site, after my blog on friendster crashed for the gazillionth time, soo in the next few weeks ill be busy sorting thru my random friendster blogs n transferring them over here. what will i be transferring over u ask? my stories, and other assorted goodies i feel i need. In the mean time, look at the yummy pair of kicks i plan on getting! OMAR SALAZAR ZOOM SB!

Beach weekend

on a lighterr note,

this weekend was soo needed!! went down 2 dubtown n met up with mike n josh.
damm it seems like no matter how long we dont see each other, whenever we get FF 2gether its still like old times!

yea soo we got there n toked the fuck up at the beach which was something i really needed to doo, and then after that we got ready for afroman.. got fuckin donedd up n went and watched the show

by the way, mike and the marked men in my opinion was better then the afroman showw..shit is crazyyy, i cant believe it use 2 be me n mike freestyling n now this kid is opening up for afroman.. wow ritee?! and yeaa after the show we chilled with afroman at the afterparty..

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afroman is ur typical black man, everything ud expect..smelly, sweaty, drunk, and high! lol but yoo that dude is mad funny
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after that we went back 2 the beach n just smoked up n chilled, didnt do so much smoking n drinking thoo cuz britneyy (who i havent seen in forever) kept me occupied..


u know, nothing beats watching the sunrise at the beach.. especially when ur with people u care about ..it seems like all the cares go away and for those 40 or so minutes everything is perfect, its all where it needs to be.. even with the parties , getting up with the old but never replaced crew, the random girls ( who i owe cigs to!! lol), meeting afroman and britney<3


i think the best part of this trip, was sitting on the beach, watching the moon go away and the sun come back up.. beauty at its most simplest form, yet still nothing can compare